Release Fear and Become a Conscious Leader Meditation

The Kundalini Meditation called release fear and become a conscious leader was something I discovered towards the end of 2012.  I highly recommend this powerful meditation to anyone who wishes powerful transformation for themselves.  Its a beautiful chanting meditation that helps uplift ones energy vibration.  It invites positivity, clarity, and creates strength to holding more than you though you could.   Indigo Yoga and Pilates in pleasant Hill is a beautiful yoga studio with a wonderful kundalini community.  In the summer of 2013 the intention of this powerful meditation was practiced at the  yoga studio as a 40 day sadhana.  The practice was held at 6:15am from June to the end of July.  Check out the link of this guided meditation by Snatam Kuar and enjoy.

To Let Go

The more I practice yoga and play with my senses, the more I open up to the amazing events that occur around us.  I am grateful to the many experiences and connections in my life.  I am also amazed by how perfect life gives us opportunity to grow.

I had decided on a theme of “letting go” for my yoga class on Tuesday 4/16/13.  My thoughts and ideas around letting go were related to breath….exhaling….letting go of body tension…..letting go of frustrations….even letting go of wanting a job really bad.  I believe letting go allows us to further stay in our presence with life.  but sometimes really big BIG events happen that are so hard to let go of. . . such as death.  In my perfect planning to the theme “letting go”, I was walking out the door to my class when I received a call.  I rarely hear my cell phone ringer in the mornings or want to answer when I’m rushing out the door.  I answered the phone to hear my mom tell me that my grandfather had just died.  In that moment the world stopped, but I couldn’t stop, I had to get my son to school and get to class to teach.  My grandfather died – slight shock, but not really.  I was instantly loving him and felt him near me, I felt him in my heart.  I didn’t cry, I didn’t feel overly sad, my reaction was how lucky was I that I heard his voice just two days prior to this.  How lucky I was to know him, and be loved by him, to be inspired by him.  My gratitude was there and then I had one regret.  I heard his voice on Sunday, but I didn’t say “hello”….I wish I had just said Hi….so that I acknowledged him in that moment.  It felt like such a trivial thing to be upset about, but I was upset about it… there it was a little bit of regret….and then I came back to exhaling….Letting go of that thought.  Letting go of the things that haunt us.  What would grandpa say?  I think he would know that we all loved him and he loved us all, and when you sit with your senses, you can feel his love inside….the love that he left in the moments that he shared with us.

The Joy in Teaching is Learning

I’ve been a yoga teacher “officially” for a little more than two years.  The journey of teaching has been a bit of a roller coaster ride.  Moments of flow would be weaved with a roller coaster ride of nervous anxiety and or the wanting perfection.

I’ve recently taken on a new yoga class of five and six year old children.  They leave no room for me to get self critical or nervous because if I do, I miss giving them the energy they need to “get the lesson.”  They often require more creativity and variety in a lesson to hold their attention.  They have been an incredible joy and I’ve been surprised at how much I’ve learned from them.  I realized they are teaching me just as much (if not more) as I am teaching them.   I am so thankful and lucky to have had this joyful exchange in a class.

My adult classes are going to have to live with this “New” effect the kids have had on me.  I see sparks shine equally as bright in kids and adults.  The kids are spreading the joy, and rippling “we are all learning more and having fun doing it!!!”.